That's How Much I Love You

Last night after I blogged, I started reading other blogs...as I sometimes do. I went from the blogs I normally read to clicking on links to other blogs that they normally read. Please don't ask me how I got there or what the blog name was even called, because I don't remember. All I remember was thinking wow...to go through everything they've been through and leave their home to go "gospel-proclaiming".

Ever since then, I keep thinking to myself...could I give up this, can I sell this, do I really need this. If I can do without all of that stuff, if I needed to, would I give up things that are even more important to me....if God asks me too, would I take my family overseas and go "gospel-proclaiming"? Would I go even if my family won't go with me?

On the way home in the car tonight, I told my family about the blog I'd read and started asking them what they thought about doing something like that. They were all for it. My oldest daughter even said, "that would be cool, I would be able to go overseas twice!" Her senior class (in three years) is planning a trip overseas for their senior trip. She didn't know about sleeping in a tent, but my husband was all for that! I was over-joyed that I'd answered yes.

That question almost had me, but I said yes because I knew that God was testing how much I trusted him. His intentions are not to cause us pain. We cause ourselves pain sometimes because we don't trust him and we start controlling where we're going in life. I was watching the movie Family Man and a line in it made me think...that's how much I love God and I was able to prove it to him tonight.

In the movie, Kate's husband was being offered a job in New York City with twice the salary, as well as a huge step up into society, and a big huge apartment that looked like a museum compared to where she lived now...a quiet little suburban neighborhood with great schools for their kids to go to, miles and miles away from all the glitz and glamour and money of New York City. Which I remember her husband referring to as "the Roman Empire"...wonder if that has any significance?

They were sitting in their house and she looked at him and said...I don't remember the exact words...when I chose you, I thought you wanted the same things I wanted, the things that we have now, but because I love you, if you want me to move our kids there and this is what you really want, then I'll go, wherever you move I will follow you...if that's what you want me to do, I will because that's how much I love you.